The match

2006-01-29T02:06:00.000+08:00

Its year 2006 and hours into day one of Chinese new year.
Im J2 now and life seems the same..
Still alone, playing basketball and dragging my feet in my journey..

I just wanna wish everybody a great year ahead..
May everything go smoothly in whateveer you do..
And most importantly do what your hearts yearn to do..
=P Be happy..
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Everything is impossible, IF you dont try..
Even if you try and fail, its a step closer to success..
Everyone comes to understand the first verse and yet miss out on the second..
I tried umpteen times, maybe too much time..
But i still try. Its simple, i just dont wanna regret..
I just dun wan to let something so important to me slip past..
Thus i try..

One of my new year resolution besides doing well in A lvl, is to finally convince her..
That; never give up on me no matter how tough it gets! I never lose it in you, i just hold on to you.. Its not fair to me if you just wanna go away and forget about it.. Its not fair.. I dont want excuses anymore.. If i can i dun see why you cant...

Perhaps its just wishful thinking on my part, if it is..
Slap me hard and kick me in the ass..
I just wan you to face me with your heart..
Talk to me..
nites..

2005-11-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

ChaLEt..
Just back from chalet which waS organised by zhi wei and matthew at downtown east..
Though the place is boring but its the pple that adds colour to our stay..
Anyway this is wad we did from check in till this morning before i left..

After collecting the seafood from my grandma hse, i went to meet kh at bus stop to take 88 with the rest.. We were supposed to board bus at 6pm sharp however we end up to be on the bus ard 40 mins ltr..
The journey was so long that the seafood and zhi wei's satays mite be spoilt so upon alighting we took a cab to downtown pasir ris.. Its not until we are there did we realise we were at the wrong chalet. So roughly, we officially step into our rooms at 9plus.. And its damn lucky our food were alright.
After settling down, me, matt, zhi wei n kh went to white sands ntuc to get the bbq stuff while the rest either went to eat or they stay at the chalet. After buying all the stuff, we were back at our rms at 1040 sharp. Then zhi wei, matt, kh, kel, sebas went out for dinner while me, cc, jam and gw stay in chalet to guitar and play cards.
First nite, its a guys nite consisting of me, kh, jam, cc, gw, matt, zhi wei, kelvin and sebas.. Surely wad else can we all do? We practically did nth much but just gamble, prepare bbq stuff and play winning eleven on zhi wei laptop that nite. While gambling away, jams guitar string snap while cc was playing. the funny thing is, cc din even touch dat string, how suay.
We marinated the chicken wings and hotdogs ard 3am before kelvin n sebas start to knock out, follow by zhiwei in the other room..
The rest try to slp as well but we only slept ard 5am with me, matt n cc on 2 beds while the rest each a bed..

8am: cc n jam rush out to zoo..

The second day start while evryone woke up ard 11am with sebas as the last.. Some of us wash up before we leave for lunch.. After lunch, we played pool and arcade while gw stayed in chalet playing winning eleven.. Its not till ard 5 we stop and return to our rooms..
Before returning, 6 big guys were squeezing on the ice cream deck of the macdonald eating ice cream like big kids..

Yeps, then we finally get some final bbq stuff and went to start the fire.. Huang rhoo came while me n zhi wei were getting stuff.. Subsequently, ly, ros, cc n jam came together followed by aileen.. Hmm, so bbq start when ly n co came.. There were chicken wings, hotdogs, satays, canned tunas, sotong, prawns, pork chops and watermelons. Food was good except that the chicken wings which i marinated, was too salty.. Wuahahha.. Vern, lb n kien te n cher mui came too... Pac came in when we end our bbq, after all he came straight here after his work.. while bbqing, zhi wei was singing as he bbq satays ly n ros was mesmorise already, then LB join in by playing jam's 5string guitar.. Do u called it a duet? im not sure but with LB skills n zhiwei voices, ITS SO DAMN NICE!!! WUahaha.. Plus lightsticks provided by kh, it so COOL...

After bbq, me, jam, cc, gw, vern, lb, kel, sebas went to town to play some free lan.. but end up we played 6.50 for lan excluding the cab fare we took back... We reached back ard 330?
There were some drinking, and ros face was all red with just 2 drinks? but we all din drank much as we play cards (gamble).. Tonite, jam n cc n pac n gw turned in first..
As it gets earlier, we were bored so we did some true or dare stunts lyking screaming away in the balcony?
Just as we were going to slp, zhi wei suddenly want to perform frog splash for ros.. then he came crashing down on me n matt.. TWICE? NO!!!! THRICE..... Wuahaha...
Yep, we finally slp ard 6am?

Woke up 4hrs ltr? oso ard 10am plus minus.. Yeo lae was there as well... Feeling so hungry, i had my jacobs n tuna as breakfast/lunch... My stay end as me n lyly leave ard 2..
Its a great stay.. Somehow, i wish ten years down the road our friendship never ends.. When it wun be chalet but holidays trips together!!!
THANKS PEEPS!!! ITS REALLY FUN!!!!!

2005-09-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

Refresh

I will start refresh.
Life have taken its toll before and its enough!
Im a happy and tired boy now!
Promos is coming!
Every friends out there study hard!!! =D

2005-05-23T14:59:00.000+08:00

Brian Mcknight_Could
Lying alone in my room
Don't know what I'm gonna do
Trying to figure out
If this is it, this time
Just can't stop thinking
About the way you make me feel inside
I just can't get you off my mind
No matter how hard I try
[Chorus:]
Could you be the one for me
Could we dance the night away
I wanna give you everything
Though I don't have much
Could you fall in love with me
Could you love me the rest of my life
Could you forever be
The one for me, this time
[Verse 2]
I walk around in a daze
The ice is melting from my heart
Can I ever know if you feel the same
Are you the sunshine that's begging me
Come in from the rain
Or have you come into my life
To turn around and take your love away
[Chorus:]
Could you be the one for me
Could we dance the night away
I wanna give you everything
Though I don't have much
Could you fall in love with me
Could you love me the rest of my life
Could you forever be
The one for me, this time
[Bridge:]
When I look into your eyes
They tell me that you're mine
but I keep asking myself
[Chorus:]
Could you be the one for me
Could we dance the night away
I wanna give you everything
Though I don't have much
Could you fall in love with me
Could you love me the rest of my life
Could you forever be
The one for me, this time
Could you forever be
The one for me
This time

2005-05-09T17:42:00.000+08:00

HAlo!

Wow, its been lyk almost 2 mths since i last blog... But i did blog once, but that wasnt even shown on my spot... Nvm... Haha... So... LEts see... A brief description of my life till now.. Haha...

Yep, now in srjc, join basketball as cca! Was told that if i wanta succeed in life, the first thing is to look on positive points of your environment and make good use of it! Ya, so srjc aint that bad... The bball boys team get into second rd (Including me!) den my class kinda outgoing and fun... Yep! Nt as bad la... Haha... study is a problem, Its a whole new level here in jc... Evryday u muz chiong! And its just study study and more study! If nt u will fail! MUahaha... Now at least im kinda used to life of such... Haha...

During tis period of tyme, i celebrated arjun n melissa burfday! And jasmine Birthday too! Haha... Arjun n melissa was a joint celebratay tag me! Haion held at j8 yoshinoya... Haha... HAd a lot fun! Took alot pic! N alot ppl turn up! Haha... Den i pon skool to celebrate jasmine birthday... Wenta shop, kbox ard orchard... HAha... As i couldnt haf dinner wid her that day, we met up again the following day for dinner... haha... She had cafe cartel... Hope she lyks it... Yup... Spent a bomb for tis occasion.. But its worth it... Anyway... now Bball competition coming to an end so will haf more tyme to study le! Haha... so tired sia...

My apologies for nt blogging... Haha.. Now will blog whenever im free since im used to the new time schedule... Haha... So do tag me ok? Haha...
Duno wad to write le, leave it for next tyme ba... Haha... Anyway...

2005-03-18T00:08:00.000+08:00

<_aftermath_>

Managed to hit home right on the dot at 11 exactly... HAha... So din get lock out.. Anyway, its reaaly been fun! Read on! ; D

Firstly, in the morning.. I had breakfast wid my family... Den i went hm to catch some slp... Den i prepared n leave hm at 1245... Went to ntuc to buy stuffs first before meeting jasmine to collect my prezzie.. Den ard 4 at bishan i left for the chalet wid pac in cab... Spent $12.40 for trip, den met arjun at the entrance n he led us there... So reached chalet at 445... Gw n jeremy were playing ps den and many ppl went to cycle... In the end... Ard 6 me, kh, olive, luis, pac? Nt realli sure whu la... We started the fire using some hi tech charcoal! Which is real effective! Luis is really gud at fire starting oso...

As the fire start, so did ppl return to officially start the bbq... There were satay, wings, bread, hotdogs, potato n marshmallow... As it was last min organised, food wasnt really well prepared... I apologised for the shabbyness in the limited choice of food... Haha... The next tyme, its gonna be better... Haha...

We bbq n had fun! Haha... Den ard 9 plus, feeling very tired... I went in to rest... Den arjun cover my eyes in the chalet n direct me out to the pit... N they sang birthday song while arjun screamed in my ears! Haha... Den took photo n make a wish... Tis tyme i make a diff wish frm be4... I hope all my friends can sense it too! Haha... Anyway, after blowing out the candle on the small cute cake... Arjun n dunno whu? Lydia i tink splashed wad creamy milky stuff on my face frm the back... Haha... Den i chased them ard wid the cream stuffs... Den duno whu suggest to throw me into the pool... I wanted to run, but colin was there den there was nth much i cold do too... Tinking i was 69kg n dey couldnt hold out all the way to the pool i just let them cont... But they all show teamwork n carry together all the way to the pool... Haha... Ignoring the guard whistering away, they still threw me to the pool... Haha...

On the way back to the chalet in my wet pants, Arjun and others started the birthday bash on me.. Most of the tyme, all i heard was arjun shouting the no. of tymes n hitting me... Haha... Red palms mark were evrywhere on my body... Den they took photos of my red marks... Haha... I went to bath den... Just when i tot all was over, arjun went to unlock the bathroom wid coins while im in a middle of my bath... Haha... But i still managed to bath well aft that.. Hahaa... Den took many photos wid friends there... Haha... Den hugged n bid my friends before leaving for home... Took a cab wid colin n pac... Haha... Yup... Thats all for the day... One word! FUN!!!! Btw, the ppl there were kh, arjun, mel, ly, lb, vern, gw, cc, pac, jemmy, ros, sugato, fiona, olive, jiayi, jessica, andrew, ee kent, luis, cinthia, cherissa n shi min.

Honestly, its been a great day... Its the best present they could possibly gif me!

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

Credits: To everybody who haf make tis bbq n chalet successful in each n any way... Ppl lyk mel preparing all bbq stuffs, arjun funny ideas, ly n kh helping out? N many others way! THANK YOU! Tis is in fact the beginning to more gatherings... =D

NOTICE: I was tinking wad bout evry month or fortnight we meet for a sports event lyk badminton? Tag me! Something lyk, if we meeting evry fornight den every month wewill be meeting twice... Den there will be four wks mah, so the first wk n third day a fixed DAY meet at a fixed TIMING... Etc; First wk sat aftn 3 badminton den third wk sat 3 basketball... Its to be in tis matter no matter wad... So if anybody wan to do other sports, he/she go bk the place n on that sat (for example) tell us wher to meet but at that fixed TIMING and DAY! Feedbacks needed!

2005-03-17T00:07:00.000+08:00

My birth Date...

Yup... Time flies... N im nw 17 yrs old... Actually nt yet lar... Coz im in the wurl onli at ard 3 am 17th march 1988... So gt couples of hrs more... But im still glad... Coz There r ppl whu send me greetings at tis nite... Just real happy... Though many things happen these few days... Disagreements wid my parents... Yet, i realise... Im the bad boi... My parents really love me n care for me... Haha.. Thz dad! Thz mum! I really love you guys! Actually i nvr in my life said such things to my parents before.. Haha... But, i honestly would lyk to try that... Haha... Yep...

Thinking back to my 17 yrs... I really din do much... Nth to be honoured of.. I just feel so weak... Letting my parents to be in such agony n pain coz my disobedient... Haha... Its really tyme i start to be mature... Guess thats the new part of my life...

Before i leave, i would lyk to thank all brothers n sisters whu haf contribute to the chalet n bbq thats going on... Hope u guys r having fun nw! Haha... Cya in hrs... Nitess...

2005-03-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

Lydia's burfday...!

Today is lydia burfday! She's 17! Damn... A few days older than me! HAha... Me, kh, jemmy, arjun, pac, cc, andrew, ros n mel celebrate wid lydia! We all met 11 at bishan mrt... Den we left for cineleisure to pool... The original plan was to play den haf sakae buffet... Haha... But we change it.. So aft pool, we went to cineleisure subway to eat... NICE! Den as we change plan, vern couldn't meet us for lunch at 3... which we suppose to eat sakae... Haha...

Aft lunch at subway, we head down to Marina ard 3 sharp... Haha... We played some arcade den the guys except kh played lan wid pros.... HAha... FUn! We end lan ard 5... Still early... DEn me, mel, cc, jemmy, arjun n andrew bowl... Haha... THe loser had to treat the winner, den arjun lost n treat andrew... HAha.. We den played abit of arcade oso... Before the whole thing end... As pac were sick n me wanta rest my sprained left ankle... Me, jemmy, pac n arjun went off first... Haha...

Althought everything went on in a mess... I had fun! Hope lydia had fun too... HAPPY BURFDAY GAL!

2005-02-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

You Are A Realistic Romantic

You are more romantic than 70% of the population.

It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...
But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.
You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets
You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

2005-02-25T14:07:00.000+08:00

You Are 27 Years Old

27

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

2005-02-17T23:02:00.000+08:00

It wasnt easy.

Coming to the wurl alone... We were fated to leave alone just as the way we came... Even so, friends you haf met, buddies you haf bonded n ppl you haf hurted... They remain as ppl who haf make an impact in your life... Ppl, who u care for... Whom u cried fwid... Who haf stand by you... Who care for you... I just wanta thank all whu haf been here wid me... It wasnt easy for you all too... It wasnt for anybody...

Life's been in a mess... Yet, all of you still manages to light up my day... Im thankful even if im just happy for a second yet hurted fer the other 59seconds.... Thank you peeps! You knw whu u r! =)

Looking back to the voices...
Im hanging on every words you say...
Coz i dun wan anything frm you...
Just waiting fer the day im able to just hear ur breathing...
I wan nth more...
Just sitting here, right beside you, looking at the sea...
Even nw when, its just raining on me...
Thats where, i really wanta be...

2005-02-14T23:57:00.000+08:00

Valentine's day

Well, firstly i would lyk to wish all couples a happy valentine! HAha... Hope its been sweet fer your couples... N to all friends n brothers out there! Happy friendship day! HAha... Mux keep in contacts! Coz if we aint fated, we would be knowing each other... =D

Okok... Enuff of crap... Back to my blog...

Its the sixth day of lunar new year nw as well as valentine day today... My job had ended for 7 days too as well... For the past wk... Its been visiting relatives n friends hse... Fun! Food-delicious! Mahjong-ing! N many hong bao! Haha... Dad gt drunk a couple of tymes liao... Seen him tok cock is real funny... haha... On fri, went back to kcp to had lunch before we head down to ps to catch constantine! But there wasn't any more tics! Haha... Den we went to pool at panklane... Visited Mr goh on sun as well..! His house is sure beautiful... Me, mel, ly, lb, jeremy, ros, gw, pac, arjun n cc spent some tyme toking to him before we fed his koi... well... Den watched Constantine! Which is lyk damn nice! So, basically thats wad i've been doing...

Today, dad woke me up wid alot of his KP! Oso dunno wads wrong wid him... Den was lyk, i din knw todae had to go temple he scold me!? Haha... As i woke up late, i just change my clothes n put on a cap before leaving... Wad the hell? Shldn't haf gone... At the temple had to take off my cap? My hair was lyk all flattened n disgusting? I was lyk so low in confidence, feel lyk killing the wurl? Haha... THe day just suxs! Aft that, last min dad fetch me to jurong to hand in my timesheet, before heading down to goldhill plaza to repair my hp? Haha... reach hm ard 12?
Wasn't allowed to cut hair till 15th of cny? So din met ly n mel... So damn freaking, f***ing irritated! Stayed hm the whole day! Managed lyk fix finish the presents for jas... Its lyk the gift, everything is pure hand work... Hope she will lyks it... Aiya... THe day really suxs to the core! But nvm... Peeps... Hope you haf fun! Tag me! Sry peeps coz im in a real bad mood that everything im typing is in a fast n short cut mode...

2005-02-01T11:09:00.000+08:00

Nth is free, you can only werk for nth...

Started werk 3days back, which is last sat... Before started werking, went out wid friends... Went out wid lydia, nigel n calvin at lydia hse blading, went to mel's hse to play guitars wid lydia n calvin den met jeremy, lb n ros in kcpss... Miss you peeps.. Sure is sian when we aint spending our tyme together! Mux go out in cny! Haha...

It seems dull in life other den hanging out wid friends... n just so meaningless at times... Werking for the past 3 days may be tiring but still it aint that dull... My werk mainly consists as a promoter for F&N products but i end up hafing to stock up the drinks in both ntuc n the tentage outside ntuc... If im werking for Yeos or F&N it will be a simpler life for me... COZ F&N gt too many products... Frm seasons to heaven n earth to f&n n coke... Its just too much!!! Haha... As im the only one i called down my team leader to help me wid the stocks, which quantity exceed 500 units? Haha.. Though we managed to stock up the stocks up to a storey high outside the tentage... There were remaining stocks of 3 locage ard 200 units in the store waiting for me to promote and re-stock! Haha.. Money aint easy to earn! Haha... but its fun la... Learn loads of things frm the ntuc staffs and F&N peeps! Haha... Btw, met Fu Chuan at ntuc! Hes werking there as a ntuc staff too... Haha... OSo stocking stocks de la... Ya, my werk mainly is liddat... N i oso haf to help promote new products taking the role of a SAMPLE-gal? Overall, im werking as a sales merchandisers cum mobile boys cum sample-gal... HAha...

Apart frm the hard werk, its a real simple life if you come to think about it... All that werking will just use up all your time, leaving you too tired to even bother bout your probs... Getting home. you will just fall aslp... So simple n peaceful...

Read jeremy's blog ytd... Was kinda waken up by his story he blogged... Realised im just lyk trying to fish in a big pond, fighting among many ppl for just that fish in that pond... Worn out and hopeless... Ahead were many bridge leading to other ponds... Or even to the main road... Wads my next step going to be? To dive in the pond, the next pond or the main road? Haha... Its crap peeps, so dun care bout me... Im just siao siao...

Tag ME!!! Im off to werk...

2005-01-19T14:18:00.000+08:00

A healthy outing!!!

Ytd went blading wid lydia, calvin chua, nigel n arjun... First met lydia, calvin and nigel at lydia hse.. Den at there we warm up first.. Haha... But nigel did some foolish thing lyk jumping ard den his blades rollers broke off... HAha... No choice he went hm in his bike den join us ltr... Me, calvin n ly den frm ly hse blade all the way from her hse to KCP to collect their awards.. On the way, ly fall 3 times.. Injured herself wid some bruises n cuts... Den blade to j8 n ate at kfc..

Nigel join us while we were eating... Aft eating we decided to blade to amk library as calvin wanta borrow books... As ly dun wan to take the risk of falling again, nigel used her blades while ly use nigel's bike... haha... On the way we met arjun who ging to kcp for some stuff... Den we drag him along too... So the five of us blade n bike all the way to amk... All 3 bladers me, nigel n calvin tag along arjun bike n form a train lyk figure.. V fun... As some path too dangerous, two will tag arjun while one will tag lydia... Den reach home ard 6... GEt scolding... Coz supposed to be hm at 5... Nvm... used to it liao... HAha.. Was Jeremy's BURFDAY, yet cant haf dinner wid him... So sry bro.. Haha...

Den today feeling very moody, knn... Woke up at 830 while i slept at 130 i tink? Damn... Holiday oso mux kp me slp so long, my parents abit weird... Den did nth much till nw... Just sian la... Today suxs! Haha...

2005-01-10T13:43:00.000+08:00

Things left unsaid= Regrets....

The new year is here... Time sure flies... Im gonna be 17 this year.. Really miss schooldays... But things will change, environment will change, ppl will change n so does the world.... Its just how we adapt to the surroundings... Even as we did that, nth will change love... Coz true love nvr fades... After 16years in this world, thats one lesson i finally realised... At this point in tyme, i just wanta thank all teachers, friends BRothERS and families members who haf guide me, tolerate me n taught me all bout life... THANK YOU!!! N to gal... I wont blame u for wad u will chose, coz isuch things cant be forced... Just hoped that no matter wad whenever u r lonely, u will think of me... Im contented wid that! and nth can change nor replace love..

A quick recap...

Aft christmas, it was boxing day... A disaster took place.. An earthquake results to a incredibly strong tsunami that took over hundreds thousands lifes! Many lost their loved ones... MAny were heartbroke... Homes were destroyed... WAd was left were nth... But painful memories of the disasters...
We are all fellow man being living on these half destroyed earth... Wad else shld we do?
CAn we do? INstead of working hand in hand as one? DO donate to the tsunami victims! Place yourself in their shoes and understand wad they are going through.. Feel humanity in you... And do wad you think is right... May you feel the way of life in you frm this... Let no greed, selfishness and hatred misguide you... YOu are wad you think to be... Frm here, you can just feel so fragile life is... So cherish every moment you haf wid your loved one! Coz we nvr knw the future... So confess ur love truthfully... Its just so ironical for us to onli truely understand that when something terrible happen... Thank you......

Next...

Went for sec3 camp (5-7jan) as a instructors wid many other ex-students... V fun though loads of things happen Was belayer in the camp, tiring coz spent duno whole day belaying campers... Den was lyk when no rope course, was going frm grps to grp helping to ra ra them and getting them to bond.. HElped out wid wanting, jingting, jeremy and others... Haha... Was mc for campfire wid LB!! We were v happy coz we managed to RA RA them to v high! Which we din thought of... Had a fun tyme wid all leaders, trainers and of coz campers! Comfirm will help out next year de! Peeps join in too!

Din do much aft back frm camp... JUst stayed home to recover my voices den took care of my sick dad den ytd worked! HAha... So this was wad briefly happen... Tag me k peeps? Haha...

2004-12-26T01:08:00.000+08:00

Christmas recap...

Hmm... Lotsa of things happen this days sia... So here's a recap! Haf fun n do tag!

Christmas eve:
Slept ard 2plus in the morning? Woke up 8 hrs ltr, which is ard ten... Got myself all ready n set to go! Was supposed to meet gal at 12 for lunch, to celebrate wid her of coz! Thats why i spent the night doing a hand make card for her... However, it really is sian.. Coz she cant make it in the end... Waited for her half an hr at the meeting place, sent her over 4 msges but she wasn't there... As its a special day, the network is congested i guess?
Managed to meet lb n jeremy for lunch... We three are in the same boat... Dateless in such a meaningful day! We decided to treat ourselves to lunch at cafe cartel, where we tok alot of things that make us sian... The sian brothers i mux say! Ly join us much ltr... She din had anything but the freeflow of bread there... Haha...
Left them at ard 245? Coz i meeting my brother to go my cousin hse... Reach my cousin hse ard 340? Took a bath be4 heading down to their clubhse for pool... Den went back to their condo to hit their PS2! Ard 6plus on... Cousins n their families start to arrive... Had the party started, ate loads of foods! Haha... Played games, guitar, piano, soccer, PS2 n watch movie wid all the cousins! ITs v warming though it haf nt been a great start of the day... This year, the party ended earlier den be4... Everybody leaves ard 1130... But still, im glad coz i had a great tyme...
Reach hm, its 12! Christmas is here! Called n msg alll my friends n of coz gal! HAha... Den finally turning in...

Christmas Day:
Wow... Woke up frm a dream or rather nightmare? I duno... But the moment i woke up... I just feel my love for gal is real pure n simple.. Something unbreakable... Something i nvr felt be4... Gal, u knw whu u r! Haha... Anyway... The dream is just too much of secret! Too much to be posted here.... Onli my brothers n sisters will knw! If u r one of them u can learn of it frm me... Haha...
Had the worse christmas! Did alot of house chores i muz say... Din wan to go out wid jeremy coz no mood to walk today... sry jeremy... Haha...
For chinese music listeners, u would haf heard of eason shen dan jie or in eng lonely christmas..( jie = end) Guess wad? The moment i on tv, which is set at chinese mtv is these mtv thats playing... Aft lunch upon reaching the bubbletea shop, this song starts to play! During dinner, while eating... An uncle on the radio to listen to the 4D results, but of all songs... The same sad songs start to play as well... Sad i muz say? Haha...
Anyway... Christmas is all bout thanksgiving? Haha... So it doesn't really matters much... Just want everybody to knw that... Giving thanks is nt just during this festive seasons, it can be whole yr rd! As long as u r willing. u can lighten up somebody's day by saying thank you for wadeva he/she done! Even in the smallest bits of deeds...

-END-

For those who haf nt heard it frm me,

MERRY belated CHRISTMAS! =P

2004-12-23T13:06:00.000+08:00

My vacation

Oh well.. My vacation is nt fun actually... Haha... I tink onli the cruise part is interesting? Haha.. I went for a 4D3N holidays? but end up onli 3D3N i tink? Haha... The first day? Or rather nite we check in ard ten? N get aboard star virgo onli bout 11 plus? Haha.... I call jeremy, mel n ly be4 i leave... Haha... MIz them la.. Den the nite i went ard the ship checking the facilities till ard 2am? Den i went back to my small cabin... Haha.. Woke up ard 8? Went for the free breakfast, which is inclusive of the cruise stay... Den nth much to do went to play basketball at the street court! N WOW! The rim is 3m tall! NBA style... Haha... Its fun, met new friends!

Den ard 2 we reach kl, wher we check out of the cruise n took a coach all the way up to Genting... Man... I tell u, the rest of the trips sux... We reach Genting ard 7? Den check in n haf our dinner at a chinese restaurant... Went shopping... Haha... Den reach back at my rm onli ard 1? Haha... Woke up next morning for breakfast at the hotel restuarant...

Went to theme park... BUt it suxs... Onli the space shot was fun? The rest sux, so i played till ard aftn den went to the arcade, miz my lunch... Haha... Den had my dinner, be4 shopping for gifts for jeremy, lydia n mel.. Haha... Went back to hotel n repeat the procedures of slping n waking up at 8... Walau! Boring rite? Morning had breakfast, den went back hotel to pack luaggages... Did some last min shopping before leaving... Sian... sat the coach for bloody 10 hrs leh! Haiyo... Haha... Well, tis is my 'vacation'...

2004-12-15T02:54:00.000+08:00

Recap...

Last sunday was the first day i work as a waiter.. It sure is fun i tell you guys... Supposed to work together wid mel, ly, jeremy n guo wei.... Yet was split to another wedding just opposite... Haha... Me n guo wei n jeremy end up being a role as runner... Its different frm waiter... Coz wad we do is during reception, we serve drinks wid trays... Den we will "produced" the smoke effect along the red carpet! Den we will be the one getting all the food ready for the waiter to serve... We oso keep all the plates n dishes when the ppl had enuff of the food... Its fun, though we ran alot on leather shoes! There were some dishes wher few guests touched! So we just took the whole dish n went back to the kitchen to eat it SECRETLY! Haha... Its so fun... We oso learn to mixed brandy too... Wid water or with ice... Haha... Ok den, thats all for the job i tink... Den after the whole thing end ard 11 plus i went hm wid ly, jeremy n mel on 56... Cool Nite i muz sae...

Monday, hmmm.... Din do anything much... Just wke up just in tyme for lunch... Den went to hawker centre to eat... On the way went belinda hse to let her my pump... Din knw jasmine was there as well... was quite shock! Wanted to tok to jas, but my brother k=po follow me! DEn din sae much n just left... Haha... Aftn went to plae ball... But v sian... WORSE of all... Msg kh! den he miss his flight to taiwan! Aiyo..

Next day i decided to wake up at 515 to morning call him... Just to make sure he is able to catch his plane... That sotong ar... Haha... Den wake up liao, i slp again till 10 plus...

Woke up, change n went out wid jeremy to bought his guitar! Which is so damn cool! Haha... Decided to buy next wk! Ltr e jeremy overtake me in skills... Haha... Liang bao went along, he test the guitar for jeremy... N he duno sat there n play hw many sons sia... Till the sales ppl came to sae" are u done with the testing?".... Wahaha... Lame... Nvm...

Well thats all i tink...Very tired liso...

Cox its bout 3 am 15/12/04, while i ltr in 15 hrs time will leave for my vacation... Tag me ppl... I'll be back tis sat!

my poem

2004-12-15T01:43:00.000+08:00

The River.

When she turn around, she took me down.

Nth turn me up other den the looks in her eyes.

she is so perfectly beautiful while nth is perfect in tis wurl.

If she onli knew hw smooth she looks.

Then will she understand my feelings.

Coz i'll nvr get over her getting over me.

But it doesn't matter any more.

Even if there aint any results frm us.

Coz im happy juz the way it is.

As long as the river runs to e seas.

My love flow endlessly just as the same.

By: Da_xiang

Edited by: Lydia

2004-12-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

The broken...

When i was young, I broke my toy.

My mother glued it back for me.

When i was in pri skool, i tored my pe pants.

My grandma mend it for me.

When i grow older, i broke ankle.

My dad took me to the doc to be healed.

When i was in sec school, i broke my heart.

She was there to put my broken heart bits by bits till its done.

Yet, when i lost my heart.

Nobody knw wher it is.....

I guess i will nvr find it,

till she return to me...

Wil the day ever return?

2004-12-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

A GD boy!

After quarreling wid dad, days pass by even harder.. Although my mum bother to tok to me, somehow i still felt tis border between us... My dad totally ignored me... My bro n sis are alright as they seems normal...

Honestly, i really dun understand... Todae my brother went out for the whole day.. I stayed hm whole day, dun even dare to go play basketball.. I packed my rm, nt really rm... But all my books n stuffs neatly into a corner.. Mum seems satisfied but dun tink my dad knws... I wash the dishes, change my bedsheets, listen to my mum's every order... I tink im real guai today... Just to make my dad happy... But i dun really tink its working...

Ytd, i slept at bout 3 n yet still wake up at bout 9... My dad didn't ask me to go for breakfast lyk usual, instead its my mum... Throughout breakfast, my dad took me as invisible... Wad can i do but just remain as it is? The more i tink the more i feel the hurt...

Besides all these, my meaning in life is still being tied to the sky.. So far n impossible to untie frm here... She doesn't knw the feelings of mine, but i knw bout hers...
Will there be a rainbow aft the rain?
Or Its just another fishing boat caught in a thunderstorm?
I dun knw... BUT i will wait till the dae the meaning in my life is gone...

Time seems to be running out for me... Is my end near?
Or is it just another paradoxical paradise?

2004-12-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

My life...

Well, sry peeps for nt blogging... Im just too busy going out n playing guitar lately...

It seems i go out almost everyday sia... But its my holiday! N i feel so hapie that im so free nw... But it seems my parents dun allow it... Why? Is there a prob wid it? I Dun even spent money when i go out... Unless its to plae! I jux been going to friends hse, looking for jobs n playing basketball... Oh man... Wad is this? Do they even try to understand me when they say i dun haf them in my heart? No... I change my looks for a new me n yet all i gt was nth! But negative compliments bout it... I knw i have nt start earning money but whu else doi can get money frm other den parents? My brother spent $140 over on rebonding n highlighting his hair n yet dey din sae him much while all i use was merely $37? N they tot i lied! I just kept quiet, tts all... If they cant trust me jux say it! Dun gif me the lousiest excuse they can find! Even when i start to find a job, dey jux cant wonder why i had to do that? When before that, dey were complaining i spend too much of their money? OkOk... Look at this nw... Getting 3 jobs interview r nth when all three might nt even comfirm you! N... YET my mum tinks im crazy! Wad in the world is wrong wid parents? HahahaHA....

Worse still... Every one of my friends to them r bad! Even guo wei! When they dun even knw them well enuff, dey say they r bad! While my brother's friends r worse, dey din even utter a single word bout them! Wad is tis? So bloody ridiculous! Right! They sure knw hw to judge ppl well i mux say! Haha... Hahaha... Today i din even do anything wrong n yet my brother is so damn f***ing pro sia... He was the one being rattled at! N he managed to even push the blame to me.... Wad a stabber he is! My dad was lyk kp me n i din even tok back... But just reply his qurstion in an unhappy tone...HE SAID he dun even wan to bother bout me anymore... Great! JUZ GREAT! Cool isnt it... HahaHA... It seems a small thing to you readers but i mux say... This pressure is huge... Hahaha...

Sometimes it really makes me wonder am i their son? During school time, there was the pressure on my studies which dey dun even knw they haf result on me... N knw whens its finally gone... There jux appear to be another pressure of being lock up... It seems pressure are being tie to me by them... N yet all i can do is persever n search for my meaning in life... My life aint bout getting gd results, playing basketball n blogging.... I lost that meaning in life, and all things seems so unrealistic n meaninglesss to me nw... It haf been my friends who had been pushing me on instead of my family... Just when i needed them most... Dey r disappointed in me... So am i, in the same way, disppointed in them!

I dunno wad i've been typing all along... But i knw i just continue to type as my feelings came pouring out.... All i ask nw is for my that meaning in life to appear soon...
I am afraid i cant hang in there anymore... Nt too long... Soon... Beyond my limits...

The New Chapter!

2004-11-27T03:03:00.000+08:00

Super suai DAE!

Yup! My com is back...
Clear of virus..But nw collecting them again, just lyk dust... It really been a long time since i blog... So many things happen...
Firstly...
Many preparation were made for the grad nite... I change my hairstyle... Its a new look but nt really used to it... actually onli went to the salon to dye hair, but in the end cancel tha appoinment wid mel's hairstylist n had my hair cut at tis salon where lydia rebond her hair... Bought all my stuffs n were ready for the big DAY...
Before Grad nite, we attend cher mui's bbq...
Its fun, although there wasn't realli enuff food... Everybody had fun! but pls ppl! Never EVER bowl at white sands downtown east!!! Its a ntuc organisation tts out to kill! We were so damn bloody cheated of our money! Just dun ever bowl dere!
Ok... DEn theres the grad nite...
Hmm....Tink i tok bout it ltr... Real tired nw.. Cox its lyk bout 3am!?! Haha... Cya...

Its saturday!

2004-10-16T11:59:00.000+08:00

Wa sian... Com was hit with 200 over types of virus man! Can u believe it? Walao... Den had to wait till next wk before it will be ready to sent back to my hse... Nw no choice but to use the internet in my uncle's office...

Jux nw checked the chalet booking... Well, it seems so nice... Wanted to book the two storey high deluxe pasir ris chalet but its so damned EX! Den no choice but to book the Downtown East Chalet... But nt so bad, cox its gonna be fun for all of us... It will be on the 29th of november till 1st of december if im nt wrong... And it cost $178 excluding the bbq pit... Well ppl contact me if u wanta go k? As it is a shared activity, the cost of all the bookings n bbq pits will be evenly shared among all participants... Hahaha...

Hmmm... aniway i guess we cant be too relax nw oso... Everybody mux work hard for O lvl too! Before we can enjoyed our break...

Ytd was a tiring day... Went to plae basketball in the morning with mel, cher mui, jean, kien, kh, ly, gw, mel n jeremy... It was tiring as we had loads of matches with other ppl there... Though we lost, but im happy cox its been such a long time since we had such a fun tyme together... Den went to physics lesson... So damn naggy sia lawrence... After physics lesson, me, mel, arjun, vern, LB, ros, ly n kh went swimming... Cool...Aft that went to had my onli meal of the dae! besides the bun i had in the morning... Haha... Ltr still playing badminton... So shiok! Its so healthy to live tis way... Study, blog, surf, eat, play(exercise) n slp! Shiok! Hmmm... Gotta go le... Haf to study chinese !

Tag me ppl!

Sick!!!

2004-10-11T17:30:00.000+08:00

Today si bei suai sia... To tink that when i had actually made up my mind to go to skool todae, i actually fall sick... Wa lao... Haha... Nvm... Had a long rest... Tink i was down with cold could be becoz i ytd nite din rest well...

Dunno wy? But ytd nite when i close my eyes... Memories came back... Flashing me back to the past... (It all seems lyk a movie be it really happens) In the end, i just sit on my bed... Not closing my eyes... The grief and sadness came back... Or perhaps, it have always been by my side... Just that i chose to ignore the feelings... Now i cant do anything but accept the fact that im still the way it is... Helpless bout my feelings... Ytd nite... I dreamt the same dream i had before... The dream returned, catching me helplessly... I woke up in the middle of the nite sweating profusely... It took me a long time before i managed to get my rest...

Well, was waken up by calvin phone call in the morning as i forgot i was meeting him... Feeling sickish, i told him i wasn't going to skool... Then the rest of today i slept alot... And ate alot too... Feeling ok, here i am writing my blog...

Haha... With my friends grief n pain by my side... Yawn... ZZZzzzz...

REcap!!!

2004-10-09T12:53:00.000+08:00

Well... Its been quite a time since i've blog... So i decided to do a BEAUTIFUL recap... Well it seems to be an INTERESTING week i guess...

Mon 4/10: Nth much happen, almost everybody is slping in class...

Nobody seems to be in the mood to study yet...

Tues 5/10: AHH! A WONDERFUL DAY TODAY! Got back CCa form... WELL THE CCA GRADE TURN OUT SO SO SO GREAT SIA! MANY ACHIEVEMENTS WAS NOT INCLUDED WHICH RESULTS TO THE WRONG GRADING... YES, THERE WERE PPL WHO GOT A1 FOR THEIR CCA GRADE BUT NT JUZ FOUR BUT MANY OTHER CCA PPL IN OUR CLASS AS QUOTE IN A BLOG( in fact.. i the whole class.. it's only the 4 of us with A1 for our cca.. )... IF THERE WASN'T ANY ERROR IN THE LIST OF ACHIEVEMENTS MANY OTHERS WOULD HAF GOT AN A1 FOR THEIR CCA GRADE TOO BITCH! BESIDES, GOOD CONDUCT AWARD TOO IS AN ACHIEVEMENT, WHETHER THERE WILL BE ANY MARKS AWARDED NOT, IT ALL DEPENDS ON MS ALSAGOFF.... SO DUN KAO BEI IF YOU DUN HAVE ANY OF SUCH ACHIEVEMENTS BITCH! JEALOUS SAE LA... BESIDES WAD MAKES U TINK THAT U R THE ONLY ONE WORKING HARD N SWEATING FOR YOUR CCA? DUNNO DUN ANYHOW SAE! WAD BOUT THOSE WHO SPEND ALMOST THEIR HOLIDAY COMING BACK TO SCHOOL FOR TRAINING ALMOST EVERY YEAR? DO U TINK DRILL IS TOUGHER DEN A 3HR NON STOP SPRINTING FITNESS TRAINING ALMOST EVERYDAY? N THE EXHAUSTING PHYSICAL CONTACT OR SHLD I SAE PHYSICAL ENDURANCE? SO DUN COMPLAIN WHEN ALL U DO IS USE YOU LEG N MENTAL STRENGTH TO DRILL... WHEN THERE PPL WHO TRAIN TILL EVERY BITS OF STRENGTH IS EXHUASTED! WELL YOU SURE ARE A BITCH! N WADS THE BIG DEAL BOUT UR CCA GETTING THE NATIONAL THINGY? DOES THAT MAKES U BIG N SAE PPL ARE JEALOUS BOUT U? WTF? LIDDAT I MIGHT AS WELL SAE I GOT THE GOLD IN AN EVENT N THAT MAKES ME ELIGIBLE TO DESPISE U? THINK AGAIN BITCH!

Wed 6/10: Had the intra class floorball during PE, lucky the weather turn out fine... Everybody was so tired that loads of ppl were slping in class aft recess... As it was olivia's burfday we went to haf teppanyaki (is it spelled tis way?), sry olivia... As there wasn't any preparation or surprised... Just hope u had a great time reading my blog! *winkx* SUM PPL r jux JEALOUS that u n mel had LOTS OF GUYS COMPANY...

Thurs 7/10: Had a physics lesson by mr goh todae... Was sad but motivated when he saes its is last year of being a principal n it makes me wants to achieve a gd result just for him to rmb us... Well, had chemistry remedial today... WOW IT SURE IS NICE... COZ MRS GAN ASK FOR ME TO SIT BESIDE HER... N THERE R PPL WHO MISUNDERSTOOD ME FOR NOT WANTING TO SIT WITH HER... YUP, THOUGH ITS TRUE I DIN WAN TO SIT WITH HER, BUT THE "DISLIKENESS" WASNT THAT STRONG... YET THE REACTION WAS GREAT FRM HER, AND SO WADEVA...!!!!! ANYWAY IM THICK SKINNED ENUFF... HAHAHA... SHIOK...

Fri 8/10: Last day of the wk, its a fine day... Played blackjack in class actually started $70 a game but it slowly rise to finally $3000 a game... Jeremy was banker, initially me n arjun owe jeremy 20 sumthing thousand dollars... But it end up nw jeremy owe me $2279.60.... Hahaha... He's a joker sia...

Sat 9/10: Ok, nw.... Its onli been a couple of hours since i woke up... first thing i did was check mail n blog! it sure is SHOCKING to read somebody blog!!!! hahaha... Den here am i blogging... As a reply!!!!

TAG ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~Dear Boys~

2004-09-30T00:07:00.000+08:00

Hmm... This pic sure is cool!!!! Its the team of basketballers frm the comic Dear Boys... Hahaha... Though Drawing it is, but it is such things that thrill us to do big things... Hahaha... Anyway.... Today was a kinda great day... Cox... We had PE! Hahaha... Its been a mth since we had one lesson... We played floorball... It sure was fun... N im so tired nw... Run alot... Tink everybody enjoyed even though there are loss n victory... Hahaha... Tml feel lyk playing basketball... Dunno mel, jj, kh, jeremy wan nt... So thrilled n excited by the comics! Basketball Rox... Guess im too over dependant on it... As it seems to be the thing i always turn to when im down... Heex... Late le... I slp le... ZzzzzZZz.... (-_-)zzz

Reality? Or fantasizing?

2004-09-29T17:31:00.000+08:00

Prelims r over... Its nw o level... But i dunno wy i still cant keep focus... Honestly... I feel lyk just giving myself up... It seems so meaningless in my life... Sad i muz sae... Perhaps i shld haf knw pppl changed... If it really is meaningless, wy cant i juz knw the truth? Perhaps i had knw the truth... But i am juz running away... It really is hard to accept reality, i guess... But i knw i haben changed... Not at all... Prelims result sux totally... But happy stilll, for me... Its way beta den my mid yr... Will i do worse or beta in 'o'? I dunno, its always been too emotional for me whenever i tink of my probs.... Anyway, ppl... Jia you for prelims...

No more prelims...

2004-09-24T17:10:00.000+08:00

Haha... Finally prelims over le.. Now can relax abit... BUt still mux study for O! Haha... But at least nw everybody is serious... NO more playing when studying...
hahaha.. first time in two years i see my class their seriousness... So surprising... Haha.. Nw making amendments for blog... Hope it look beta... Included a song i lyk... Jeremy say nt nice, but who cares... Its my blog! Hahaa... Its goona take a long time to change the skins...Din find the one i lyk... So i try another time ba... HAhaha... Go le... WAnta buy dinner for family... Cya...

FluNked!

2004-09-17T15:49:00.000+08:00

So this is my blog spot! haha... THe previous one suxs... Perhaps this is better? Haha...So do come in future ppl! Nw chatting with mel in audio conservation, so fun... Haha... Today chinese paper two, tink did kinda bad... Din really study... Ytd fall ill so cant study.. Sian bo? Prelims... Haha...